Belief, trust and friendship

Sometimes we believe in certain people.. have expectations from them...
G says we should not expect.. but we are human.. and expectations and human go together..

There are so many complications in life.. and most of it is because of these expectations..
Be it professional .. be it personal.. these always have some value.. Its a different topic if we are able to meet other's expectation or not..

We might not be raising upto that level.. and when we dont and see the pain in our loved ones... we feel guilty... and not go and advise.. dont have any expecations from me.. or nobody has ever had any expectation from me.. These are words of escapism...

When in a relationship.. be it parent child, brother sister, husband wife.. even in friendship.. we need to know that a little bit of affection is always expected... You need to be confident that when the whole world leaves me alone... my friend is always there for me...That is what is friendship after all... The confidence in the other person, the trust which you have on that person irrespective of whether the person will really do it for you.

What if there comes a situation you are no longer going to trust your friend... the friendship is off on a vacation.. probably that is the day, you realize, you did a mistake...

They say.. parents are by chance
frineds are by choice


So choose your friends wisely... Choose your life wisely!!!

Unwanted stuff

A person won some money in a TV show... Its been years after that... He has moved on with his life.. others have moved on with their lives... But it seems like media hasn't :)
Why trouble a person who is leading his life the way he wants to...

http://ia.rediff.com/movies/2007/jan/23harsh.htm

This person not watching a TV show is a big news and that is on a website.. How pathetic...

And look at me.. i am blogging about this on my blog

Pine Mounatain - Callaway Gardens!!! - Pics

Away from life into Nature...

Peacock on the roads :)




Do u think this one knows to read the sign... yes it did and just after it did.. it jumped over :)



What a look



Slight rainy day..





The great combat



Pin drop silence



Bridges - joining two places together

Somehow.. life seems so stagnant.. so bored...
Just feel like going away ... and be with people who love you uncondionally...

Sometimes I feel.. I am becoming very selfish.. how can i expect life to be always nice and beautiful...
But then come on... its my life.. it has to listen to me..

So I need to make it better..I call mom and talk to her so much.. I call G and bug him so much..
Then watch a lot of movies... At this rate I will have to download more and more movies

I need to go out and roam around places.. but then all this all alone?? Well if thats how I can make it interesting..So be it :)

Do i really need this in my life?? was the first question which came to my mind...
Is it important??
What if I did not have one??
How does it matter??

It should be beautiful.. not so heavy.. have good features... but then shouldnt be heavy on my pocket....

The thought was "Oh God.. How much more should I wait...???"

Finally on 3 Jan 2007.. something happened.. which had never dreamt of even 2 years back...

I was holding it in my hands.... It felt wonderfull... It was beautiful.. A little heavy than expected... but so smooth... I felt a little proud... I felt wow!!!!

I took it to my room... made some place for this... I wanted this to be in front of my eyes.. so nealty arranged some nice place next to me... When I slept that day.. I was just looking at that.. Next day I woke to see that first :)

Reality struck and I finally believed that now I am truly a proud owner of a Dell Laptop :)

Pal... moments

Was listening to this song some time back

"Aanewaala pal jaane waala hai.. hosake to isme jindagi bitado.. pal jo yeh jaane waala hai"

This seemed so true at that moment... Who knows what s in store for us in the next few moments...

We forget this and keep thinking either about our past or future and keep worrying in life... Some times I wonder is life worth all these worries... Can we live life without thinking about what will happen in the next few days...??

Blue Ridge Parkway

Days of waiting were finally over. After a Lot of debate on whether we would go to The Great Smoky Mountains or The Blue Ridge Parkway!!!, there was consensus on the latter.And when enquired, we found that it had started snowing and that was the indication that fall colours would come to an end soon.. and this was the right time to give a fabulous treat to your eyes.



Armed with 2 SUVs and a full size car, we folks headed out of Macon. Braving the rains, we finally reached Candler(North Carolina) which was our shelter from the harsh climate in the night. We spent the night eagarly waiting for the sun to rise with a favourable climate... so that we could admire the beauty of nature.



It was dawn soon.. and we went out to embrace the cold winds...Just as we were trying to get the feel of nature.. chillness creeped in and all of got into our jackets... After a little bit of photography here and there we finally started off. As we were on our way to the Mountains.. we could see a very beautiful picture.. It seemed very much like a wonderful painting... The deep blue sky at the background and the giant mountain filled with green, yellow, orange, red and dark red trees... For a moment, it makes you wonder.. were these the same trees which a few months back had lush green leaves swaying their way to glory...



As we went further up.. the view got blurry...the clouds, the cliff and the road all seemed to merge into one. It was reminiscent of the old movies depicting scenes of heaven and whether we would actually make it there or not when our time comes, here we were touching the clouds.



And then began the descent down the curvy roads. An early dinner of bread, butter, calamari and lime squeezed into water; and we were all set for our journey back. Inspite of a car full of drowsy people we reached home sweet home.

Few pics from my trip last week...

Beauty would be a very small word to describe... what we saw last weekend... It seemed.. God gave us just 2 eyes... to gaze at so much beauty.... Thanks to the person who invented cameras... we could capture at least a little of the beauty...

Usually I go office a bit late.. But today I made it a point that I go early...

As soon as I got down the stairs.. there was a nice cold breeze.. i just lifted my head.. and saw leaves were just dropping off the trees...Wow.. It was so wonderful.... I just wanted to sit there and stare at the same... But then just today I had thought of going to the office soon... So just left from there..

Looking at the leaves.. coming down so graciously.. left me thinking.. how could nature have so much of beauty.. its just amazing!!!!

weekend...

2 weekends back it was pretty hectic... We were moving into a different apartment... We started to move things on friday night itself, so that Saturday we could do the setting up :)

Saturday by 1 we were done shifting all the things...including our Sofa and two heavy tables... After all 4 girls can do this :)
After the tiring work.. we went to have lunch in the Indian restaurant.. and for a change the food was good... then we headed towards Walmart for groceries n stuff... Luckily we found some cushions etc on sale.. We bought a few for our new home...It was fun shopping for the home ( I love it )

It was around 7 that we decided we leave for the lake nearby.. We reached there and wow what a beauty.. though it was getting dark.. Infact the darkness was just enhancing the beauty of the lake.. We sat there and talked and talked... for 1 hr.. then it became too dark that we couldnt see each other's face... We then went for the movie 'departed'... we had a eventful weekend

Opinions...

Speak less with people whom u love the most, coz, if they can’t understand ur silence they can never understand ur words.

Is this true??
If this is then do people in love never talk??
I would say...

Speak more with people whom you love the most, coz, if you cannot come out with words in front them ... you cannot do it in front of anybody

Wish I had a home here

I was just sitting on one of the rocks and waiting for G.... Turned around and my eyes just caught this sight.... It was just mind blowing.... esp with the mild breeze



As soon as G came... I showed him this... and asked him... if a house could be built here... I wanted to stay just right there...

But soon had to face reality.. and had to come back to the routine life.. :)

Path Crossing

Paths cross... seems like its the ending.. but may be its just a new beginning of a new path...

Me in India...

When u go to a different place.. its quite natural to miss home... And even more when u are away from home for a long long time...

There are a lot of things which u are reminded of...
When mom tells u to eat food... and u insist on going out..
When ur family wants to spend time with u.. and u want to go out
When ur brother/sister is eagerly waiting to get guidance from u.. and u tell them check the internet

Well not everybody is like what I said.... you might be very much with ur family...

When u go far away u miss all these things... How much ever technology might have made the world closer.. U might have phones, internet.. which can keep u connected to ur family more than ever...still the personal touch is always missing...

Well to have this wonderful experience of personal touch I finally planned my trip... home sweet home.. and must I say it was the sweetest time i spent the whole year...

I reached Delhi intl airport and from there started my journey in India... Once i sat in the AC shuttle bus (was feeling cold.. and was really fed up with the AC for 2 days in the airport..in the plane...) from there as soon as we hit the road... saw the Delhi traffic.. and just smiled to myself... "It would take a lot of courage to drive like this.. :-)... I just saw the people on 2 wheelers and felt so nice... Inspite of the traffic and all those.. I was kind of satisfied seeing people on road..

Then 5-6 hrs in the domestic airport felt too long.. as I had all my luggage with me.. as there wasnt anybody to check in the luggage... I had to make a call home o inform them I reached India.. but there was only 1 STD available which was inside... and for that I had to get my luggage screened.. After a long... (very very very long is what i felt.... so near yet so far from home) wait... I landed at Bangalore finally on Sunday... I was desperate to get my bags.. as until that was done.. I coouldnt go meet my family... As soon as I got it.. I pushed thru the cart... and went out.. hugged mom... dad bro had come there.. oh my brother had become pretty tall and had a pretty neat body compared to the skinny cutie pie i had left behind...
My 2 uncles had come and my sweet cousin sis and my little cousin bro too... It was amazing looking at them...

As we went out of that place... just outside.. and just to meet me.. G's mom and G's sweet sis were waiting.. it was so nice to see them too... We were standing there and chatting for a long time...

Then all of us thought i should go home and take a little rest....(i dint want any though)

Well my uncles had got their cars.. and my bro s, sis, one uncle and me in one car...and mom, dad and uncle in another... Half the way and my mom was so eager to see me and talk to my... I got down in one of the signals and shifted to the other car...

On the way got the feel of B'lore... That much of traffic.. so many people... I felt I missed it so much... I just opened the windows and just felt the air so much... Who cares if the air is polluted or not... For the first time I loved to see so many people on the road... traffic etc etc...
After all this and some while it finally sunk in .... I was back home... in India...

home..sweet home

Now that its been more than a year.. wish to go home had been increasing a lot...

Never had I been away from mom for more than 2 weeks... and I still cant believe how I could stay without my family for so many days in such a far off place..

But now just 2 more weeks and I will be with my family.. I am so excited.. But will be with them for a very few days.. and will be back soon...

I am just hoping these 2 weeks get over very soon.. and next few weeks when I am in India let the days go very very slow...

1 year in US

Its been a year now since I have started working in US...

My first time in US

There is so much difference from then n now...

Before:
Anxiety.. tension.. fear.. excitement.. and lot of other things... fear of how ppl will be over here.. if i can understand what they speak..

Now:
anxiety.. only for certain things
tension.. sometimes tensed about home parents n bro..
fear.. of what???
excitement.. well have to go back to India for vacation so that excitement is there
Ppl over here.. atleast in my office they are very sweet.. very nice and yes now i can understand what they speak.

Lots more to write... but then sometime later

My Vacation for the Independence Day - Part 1

Friday:

Flight tickets were booked, hotel reservations were made, rental car booking was done.. My leave was approved.. Everthing was going good... 4days of holiday!!!
American Independence day on 4 July.. (this was on a tuesday).. I had taken leave on 3rd.. so that I could get 4 full days and could go away from here.. from work.. from the place.. into a totally different world.. (all this just for a change)

My flight was at 8.10 PM, so i thought if I left my place at 5 I would have enough time to travel to Atlanta and check in.. A's flight was at 6.30. she had to a little early.. I went to drop her to the groome... but she missed the 4.00 PM groome.. So we decided we will drive to airport... And we came to office to get my laptop... everybody in office was wishing "have a gr8 trip" "have a good weekend" etc etc.. and then went home picked up my bag and then off we left for the airport... I drove pretty fast.. was in 80mph.. (in speed limit 65)..(thank god there were no cops).. But after all this too.. we got stuck in traffic for more than half an hr.. By the time we reached office it was 6.30 PM. A missed her flight.. then she finally got the next available ticket.. this was at 9.30. My flight too got delayed from 8.10 to 9.10 PM. By the time I reached Philadelphia airport, it was 11.30 and by the time we got our car and reached the hotel it was 12.30 in the morning.... All tired and slept of for a wonderful day next day.

One pic of NY



Rest to be continued (under construction...)

Me myself & myself

How many times do we just sit all alone outside the house staring at trees.. the roads... the houses around...
All of them are either so busy.. or want to catch up some sleep which they missed during weekedays.. or watch TV or surf the net.. or watch a movie.. but have we got some time where we can just sit back and keep staring at nothing... just think back on something...somethings past.. do we sit n remember about people who were part of our lives.. Do we just leave our past and keep running towards our future... And these days we are running so that we can live even tomorrow's life today...
Ok now all this questions and statements were coz I did it today...

i was bored sitting in my room, well today was not that boring compared to many other sundays I have spent.. :)

I just opened the front door.. It was a little hot... but not that one couldnt go out at all.. So I took one chair outside... then I took another one..switched on my mp3 player... put on my headphones... (now I understand y ppl in US always have earphones or headphones always.. thats the best company here )
Then I took a book n pen (had been long since I wrote something on paper)...
I went out at 2.30 PM
Sat there and stared for a while.. then I started feeling a little different.. i started writing and then by 4.30 I had nearly 4-5 pages full of my thoughts[of course with breaks in between just looking at the superb cars going around..].... now it was still hot outside... and since I was sitting on one chair and my legs on the other..i nealty closed my book and closed my eyes.... and those 10 minutes which i slept there was gr8... i was in such a deep sleep, when i woke up I felt I slept for hours...
It was a gr8 2 and half experience with me myself and myself :)

I came inside to sleep for half an hr in AC.. but then somehow i had lost the sleep.. so opened this up to put this memorable experience of mine :)

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Update:

It rained after a while... So all of us at home sat outside with hot tea.. And once the rain stopped I took these pics

Just the road: Seems so empty....



Apartment...



Apartment n road: what a combination

dhundla sa rasta hai..

Just wrote this...

dhundla sa rasta hai..
kuch dikhayi nahi deta...
rasta sahi hai galat
kuch samaj mein nahi aata

rasta sahi hai samaj
agar hum aage badhe
saath mein humare
darr bhi saath chal degaa

galat hai yeh socha humne
piche mude to doosra rasta dikha
khushi ke maare jhoom uthe hum
paanchi ki tarah ude uss disha

aage badhne hi lage the hum
acahanak hume kuch dikha wahan
dher saare log khade hain
kuch to baaten kar rahen hain

chupke se unke baaten sunne
hum bhi pahunche unke paas
bade log the, badi si baaten
humne to kabhi na aisa suna

kya hum bhi aise hosakte hain
aise soch mein pad gaye hum...
sochte sochte chalten rahen
doosra hi rasta milgaya

phir se humne dekha uss disha
hairaan hogaye hum
dhundla sa rasta hai phir se
kuch dikhai nahi deta

Well before I came to this ending I had this (D said this ending is perfect.. though he never read the original one)

kabada kar diya humne poem ka..
kya karen IT mein hai hum

Is it just the mood.. or is it something else...

Why does it happen sometimes..

U have so many people around u and still u feel lonely... And sometimes even in loneliness u find peace....
Is it just the mood.. or is it something else...

Sometimes even if u dont have anything to talk to.. u go on and on...
But sometimes even if u have lots to talk u r just silent....
Is it just the mood.. or is it something else...

Sometimes even if u like someone's thoughts u dont agree to it..
and quite often u dont like some opinions but still agree to it
Is it just the mood.. or is it something else...

Why is it that now I want to write so much.. but somehow I dont feel like..
and there are times when I dont have anything specific to write.. but still thoughts flow in as soon as I start writing....
Is it just the mood.. or is it just something else...