Me myself & myself

How many times do we just sit all alone outside the house staring at trees.. the roads... the houses around...
All of them are either so busy.. or want to catch up some sleep which they missed during weekedays.. or watch TV or surf the net.. or watch a movie.. but have we got some time where we can just sit back and keep staring at nothing... just think back on something...somethings past.. do we sit n remember about people who were part of our lives.. Do we just leave our past and keep running towards our future... And these days we are running so that we can live even tomorrow's life today...
Ok now all this questions and statements were coz I did it today...

i was bored sitting in my room, well today was not that boring compared to many other sundays I have spent.. :)

I just opened the front door.. It was a little hot... but not that one couldnt go out at all.. So I took one chair outside... then I took another one..switched on my mp3 player... put on my headphones... (now I understand y ppl in US always have earphones or headphones always.. thats the best company here )
Then I took a book n pen (had been long since I wrote something on paper)...
I went out at 2.30 PM
Sat there and stared for a while.. then I started feeling a little different.. i started writing and then by 4.30 I had nearly 4-5 pages full of my thoughts[of course with breaks in between just looking at the superb cars going around..].... now it was still hot outside... and since I was sitting on one chair and my legs on the other..i nealty closed my book and closed my eyes.... and those 10 minutes which i slept there was gr8... i was in such a deep sleep, when i woke up I felt I slept for hours...
It was a gr8 2 and half experience with me myself and myself :)

I came inside to sleep for half an hr in AC.. but then somehow i had lost the sleep.. so opened this up to put this memorable experience of mine :)

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Update:

It rained after a while... So all of us at home sat outside with hot tea.. And once the rain stopped I took these pics

Just the road: Seems so empty....



Apartment...



Apartment n road: what a combination

dhundla sa rasta hai..

Just wrote this...

dhundla sa rasta hai..
kuch dikhayi nahi deta...
rasta sahi hai galat
kuch samaj mein nahi aata

rasta sahi hai samaj
agar hum aage badhe
saath mein humare
darr bhi saath chal degaa

galat hai yeh socha humne
piche mude to doosra rasta dikha
khushi ke maare jhoom uthe hum
paanchi ki tarah ude uss disha

aage badhne hi lage the hum
acahanak hume kuch dikha wahan
dher saare log khade hain
kuch to baaten kar rahen hain

chupke se unke baaten sunne
hum bhi pahunche unke paas
bade log the, badi si baaten
humne to kabhi na aisa suna

kya hum bhi aise hosakte hain
aise soch mein pad gaye hum...
sochte sochte chalten rahen
doosra hi rasta milgaya

phir se humne dekha uss disha
hairaan hogaye hum
dhundla sa rasta hai phir se
kuch dikhai nahi deta

Well before I came to this ending I had this (D said this ending is perfect.. though he never read the original one)

kabada kar diya humne poem ka..
kya karen IT mein hai hum

Is it just the mood.. or is it something else...

Why does it happen sometimes..

U have so many people around u and still u feel lonely... And sometimes even in loneliness u find peace....
Is it just the mood.. or is it something else...

Sometimes even if u dont have anything to talk to.. u go on and on...
But sometimes even if u have lots to talk u r just silent....
Is it just the mood.. or is it something else...

Sometimes even if u like someone's thoughts u dont agree to it..
and quite often u dont like some opinions but still agree to it
Is it just the mood.. or is it something else...

Why is it that now I want to write so much.. but somehow I dont feel like..
and there are times when I dont have anything specific to write.. but still thoughts flow in as soon as I start writing....
Is it just the mood.. or is it just something else...

Living the moments...

I had a nice evening today... After office, i just sat in the car today.. trying to switch on the mp3 player.. then a sudden thought occured... listen to more songs... and go somewhere.. So I started off on the long drive....

So off I went for the Drive.. from Macon to Jackson... They are 40 miles apart.. so I spent totally 1.5 hrs driving and listening to songs.... and I must say it was gr8...

Normally, I wouldnt like to be alone so long.... but today i had no regrets... I was singing all along... had opened up the sun-roof in the car.. so that cool air could just come in & out... Was singing so loud..... My God.. I felt like I was freeing myself.... Doing nothing.. but just going on and on... Well I always thought of going for a long drive.. but never thought would go all alone... and that too on a weekday...

I had been for this drive with D a couple of times... but it was so different when I went today... it felt like the old me... for a few minutes I just forgot that I was in US or even that I am far from my family... I was just living those moments....

Opinions

Everybody has their opinions... And we always respect others opinion... whether we agree to it or not.. we do acknowledge that the other person's opinion also matters...

But sometimes it so happens that the other person's opinions..start to irritate you... and u cant even acknowledge the fact that such a opinion can also exist.. In that case u cant tell the person directly.. nor can u ignore the fact.. and sometimes it leads to frustration...

So is it fine that u r irriated or is it ok to be frustrated... these are the options when u cant tell out to the person and u r not able to ignore it either...