Sunday, January 23, 2005

Life !!!!!!!!!!!!

Its Sunday Evening around 6.30 PM.
And i am in office. Actually had some pending work to do. But here the network was down, no no some other problem, ultimately dint do much work.

I could have as well gone to Blore for the weekend. But anyway yesterday i did some work.
Well today i played around for sometime - minesweeper ( had been long time since i played this - i used to play it rteally well, listening to music. and reading some stuff.....

Then i called up one of my friends in US.......... spoke for sometime. I had fought with my friend last nite.

I have been fighting with everybody these days. Dunno y, is it coz of tension or some other reason. I was not like this before. May be things will be fine soon.

Sometimes i feel i want something in life -- but what i dunno. May be this is life....

We keep searching for something in life, but even after getting so many things....

We keep searching ...............................................

For what???????????????? I wonder

Saturday, January 22, 2005

Yet another story - dunno y there are nightmares

Now this is another story, but of course this happened some 10 years back.

I was still in school. May be in 6th or 7 th class. I was very cute, sweet and inncoent.We (from school) had gone for a trip . It was a beatiful hillstation. Green, green, green wherever u see.

I use to imagine that Greenland is a place where u find only greenery and nothing else.

I was walking along with my close friend on the green land bare foot. It was so soft, so comforting. We both were having fun, running around, doing the craziest things we could think of at that time.

We were so lost in our world that we dint realize we had come quite far away from our team.
But both of us were brave girls, we decided we'll somehow reach our people. We kept on walking for a long time. Suddenly we found a cave. We were really shocked to see a cave right in the middle of the soft grassland.

We thought y to bother about these things, let s move on. But curiosity .........
That dint allow us to move even an inch beyond that point. So we decided to go n explore the small cave out there. Well we kept walking for about 5 mins. Suddenly there was darkness. I just couldnt see even a ray of light. It was as if i was in black hole.

In the meanwhile my friend was not beside me. Dunno where she dissappeared. I was really really scared. I couldnt even go back coz i dint know the direction i was heading to. So i kept on moving. It had been hours walking, or so i thought...... Suddenly i stopped. I saw something.............

I saw light, a small ray of light..... Seemed to me like "Ray Of Hope"
I ran towards it, and after some time i stopped, i couldnt believe i was out of the dark, scary cave.

Oh I was so happy to be out of the "black hole" . I saw just trees and trees. This was dense forest. I walked again for a while. But then realized this was no better than the cave. No signs of me going back to my team. The situation was like "out the frying pan into the fire".

Suddenly there i saw a small pond. I was damn thirsty, so was relieved to see that
I just bent down to drink water. And then...................

Blood dripping -- that's the only word i can think of. I just lifted my head. And I see.......

Animals!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

The sight was "aagh". Hopeless!!!!

I saw animals. But they were half proper, i mean as normal animals, but the other half there was no skin. I wanted to shout but alas, i was in such a shock voice just dint come out.

I was breathing hard. So hard that somebody had to shake me for coming out of the shock.
And yes somebody did shake me, it was my uncle.

I was so happy to see my uncle & to realize all this wasnt true. But as a 13 year old, it was too much for me. It was not just a nightmare it was a "deadly nightmare".

It s not that i write only about nightmares, will write something else too. But in a short while :)

Phew !!!!!! Thank God I was at home on My Bed


I am in office today - not that much work. but yes little bit of pending work to be done.

Well let me tell u people a story ---

It was in the morning, I was going to meet someone. I dont reall remember, y i was going to meet that person. Basically i remember that i was going to meet a lady, and she would be taking me to some place.

I was all ready, we had decided to meet up in a place from where we would move ahead.
So i reached the place on time. I met the lady also there. I was happy i dint have to wait much :)

Oh yeah!!!!!! now i remember i was supposed to go and talk to a few people who were cheated by their company. I had to prepare this report (please dont ask me -- y I was supposed to do it)

So we went to a place (some factory). I met 2 guys over there (pretty smart) and they told me their story. I am not gonna tell what the story is, anyways thats not interesting.

Now that this got over all four of us got into a taxi. I was wondering y those 2 guys are also in our cab. I was feeling a bit uncomfortable by now. Somehow things dint seem going good. But then i thought i am just assuming things.

After a while one guy got down in some place, and we moved further. Actually we were heading towards my place as the lady told me she would drop me home. Then somewhere the taxi again stopped. A hefty guy got into the cab.

This guy was really really scary (like the villans in movies), I smelt something fishy...
I tried to overhear the conversation of the lady and the other 2 guys. And then .................

Oh my god !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I realized i was in a big mess. This was some sort of a gang. The first thing which came to my mind -- "God Kill Me or take me out of this mess"

But till now they hadnt realized that I came to know their plans. And we were just moving in the taxi normally. Luckily, we just stopped the car as one of them had to buy a pack of cigarattes. I saw an auto standing just 3-4 feet away from our car.

I dunno what happened to me all of a sudden i just opened the door of the car, ran into the auto, asked him to move. Fast ................ Very fast. I could see the taxi following us. I made the auto guy go into small roads where cars cant enter, and some how reached some place. Then got down there and took another auto (u see dint want to take the risk of same auto).

Somehow i reached my home, just to find the door locked. I was scared, what if one of these people come there. Then in 2 minutes mom, dad came back.

I am sure i was never so happy or so relieved to see them. I hugged them, we went inside and i calmed down a bit. But i still had this tension that those people would track me down.
The whole night i couldnt sleep. tossing around on my bed. Suddenly the phone rang, it was an unknown number. I got even more scared. I dint pick up the phone. Then i heard my phone beeping again. This time i dint want to look at the phone....

But it kept on beeping. I told myself "U r a brave girl.... Comeon face it"

I just turned around and had a look at my phone. It was my "alarm", beeping.

I just looked around - i am in my room in mysore. Nobody in my room. It was just me thats all.

Oh man!!!! I was so happy. Never was i so happy to wake up in my room. I was so relieved.
What a dream this was............. ooops not a dream - an adventurous NIGHTMARE